Madonna discusses her history of suicidal ideation during the contentious custody dispute

Madonna’s mental health was severely strained by the dissolution of her second marriage to actor Guy Ritchie, thus she could never bear to lose her child.

Known as the “Queen of Pop,” the singer recently reflected on her acrimonious custody dispute with the Hollywood legend. She disclosed startling details regarding their divorce, stating that she went to a dark place while battling to prevent Ritchie from taking their kid.

Between 2000 and October 2008, Madonna and Guy Ritchie were wed for eight years before she filed for divorce. In 2000, they welcomed their son, Rocco, and in 2006, they adopted David Banda, a child from Malawi.

Madonna Considers Her Conflict With Guy Ritchie Over Custody

In a recent interview, the “Like A Virgin” hitmaker talked about one of the most trying times in her life, stating that she became suicidal due to her custody disputes with Ritchie. Madonna admitted that she struggled and had days when she wanted to amputate her arms.

In fact, I considered taking my own life. Since I’m not emo, that probably sounds pretty strange coming from me. However, she admitted, “I was like, ‘I can’t take this pain anymore,'” during the most recent edition of Jay Shetty’s podcast, “On Purpose.”

According to Madonna, she was fine with her marriage to Ritchie ending, but his attempts to steal her son made death seem like a better alternative. She told Shetty that being on her Rebel Heart Tour made it extremely difficult to manage her mental health during the custody dispute.

During her tour, the pop queen recalled crying.

Madonna acknowledged that it was challenging to perform for her fans on stage and then return home to continue negotiating the custody issues with her attorneys. The singer admitted that the difficulties shattered her on some days.

“I would simply be crying while lying on my dressing room floor. I genuinely believed that the world was ending. I was unable to handle it.

Madonna, of course, no longer struggles with suicidal thoughts and attributes her success in overcoming difficult times in her life to her spiritual journey. She mentioned that it helped her learn to view difficulties—like her custody dispute—as teaching opportunities rather than as penalties.

Inside The Singer’s Conflict With Her Former Husband Over Custody

When Madonna’s 15-year-old son, Rocco, stated in December 2015 that he wanted to stay in the UK with his father, the custody battle between her and Ritchie started. At a hearing of the New York Supreme Court, Justice Deborah Kaplan heard the case and ordered the then-teenager to go back to his mother.

A source from Ritchie’s side claimed that Rocco left his mother voluntarily when the time came, despite Kaplan’s insistence that Rocco return to the US by January 2016. According to the source, he would rather live with his father than his mother, who they characterized as a “old-school parent.”

When Madonna renounced her claims of illegal retention and ceased her attempts to compel Rocco to leave the UK in September 2016, the custody dispute came to a conclusion. 

They agreed to let him live with his father after she struck a settlement with Ritchie, whose lawyer said their son’s requirements had changed, according to Page Six.

Regarding her spiritual practice, the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame honoree was raving.

Madonna attributed her recovery from the custody dispute with Ritchie to the spiritual practice of Kabbalah. She attributed her years of success and accomplishments to the branch of Jewish tradition, according to the Blast’s coverage of the story.

Madonna clarified that spirituality was necessary for success, asserting that without her Kabbalah path, she would not be the famous person she is today. She went on to say that facing the harsh truths of the world is where real meaning may be found, not in pleasant places.

“The goal of my soul is to use all I do to bring light into the world. Madonna asserted, “I want everything, but I want it to share, not to keep for myself. She said that instead of letting other people’s beliefs dictate her, she eventually learned to stand out.